THE CHILDREN’S BREAD
– Weekly Devotional –
20th. February 2023
Child of God, many years ago, the Holy Spirit began talking to me about the most prominent preachers of the word, who were at that point in time on the world’s stage, and many of them are still active. He began to talk to me about things I did not know were taking place in the body of Christ, as well as revealing to me, how much shame, some of them were bringing to the church by their public, as well as secret activities. These revelations would not stop, regardless of how hard I tried to ignore them or pray them away, even till date, so much so, that I have finally learned to embrace it as one of my mandates from the LORD GOD Almighty, in spite of how, I and others may feel about it!
Most of the information are things He does not want me to talk about, but just for me to keep to myself, for learning purposes, as well as, in order to be HIS witness to the truth about them, while some others are those, He has given me the permission to shared for His glory, and for the good of the Bride of Christ.
This week’s devotional, is about what he was revealing to me concerning few men of God with regards to a particular topic according to the title of this devotional, but narrowed down to one particular man of God. At a point in time, after the Holy Spirit had given me the same vision multiple times, I got confused, as well as desperate, and began to think: Ok, if the LORD GOD is displeased about a situation, what’s the problem, why relate it to me, a nobody in my own eyes as at that point in time, when I compared myself to these world giants on the public platform? I did not speak it out, but what I felt about the Holy Spirit was clear: Go confront them Yourself – Holy Spirit. I don’t know them. I don’t want to have nothing to do with them. Beside seeing them on the television, they are far away and there is no way I can get to them to discuss these issues. I am human and not God Almighty, this burden is not mine! Now, someone would be quick to finally find dirt on me, just by reading what I personally and purposefully wrote here, and by making a sermon about how I do not love the children of God, etc. Well, permit me to explain; I love the children of God!
Child of God, my reaction was neither bougie, nor petty, but rather human nature, as well as a fact, based on who these individuals are, and whom I considered myself at that point in time to be as it relates to the earthly church; I believed that I was only called to a little group of people, although, from the first day I received my calling, the LORD GOD made it clear, that He has given me a global ministry. Nonetheless, how could I have fully understood it back then, given the circumstances I found myself in, and also given the fact that I did not have anyone, who could help me understand what I was experiencing? Consequently, Child of God, it was impossible for me to fully grasp immediately. Besides, it was a season, that I was on my own thing….and could really care less about the things of the Holy Spirit, though, as best as I was able to, I was still reading my bible, praying, interceding for those whom I considered worthy of my intercession, yet, going through, which I also reminded the Holy Spirit to put into consideration. That notwithstanding, He would not stop talking to me concerning what He wanted me to know about them, while I decided to continue ignoring His voice as best as I could. I was very convinced, that if I ignored HIM long enough, he would say to HIMSELF, “This one is not a serious person, let ME go somewhere else” but instead of what I anticipated happening, rather, it got even worse in its intensity, and frequency, that I eventually could no longer bear it and had to do something just to get back my peace of mind!
As these visions of complaints as I would refer to them continued, what it ended up doing to me in the physical realm was this; I was forced to begin to observe these different pastors whom the Holy Spirit, was talking to me about on the television, just to see if I was indeed hearing right, and if so, to see if what He was revealing to me, had already began to manifest in the natural realm, or not! As I began to pay attention to them, by intentionally watching their current sermons as at the time, I was shocked at what I was witnessing with my human eyes, and hearing with my human ears; I was literally witnessing a real-time kick-boxing match between two groups of pastors. Bitter fight of words, almost like a cage fight, which spectators were obviously not aware was going on, but I would assume, only those, who were directly involved with them, following them, and those who are also in the ministry as I am led to believe from my personal experiences in recent years, as experience is a very good teacher- Y’all know 😊!
Like He revealed to me in the spirit realm, the fight was going on between two well established pastors; A pastor of the doctrine of grace, who was attacking the very well-known hard-liner preacher at the time. The two groups, were very extreme in their doctrine! I was the spectator, whom they never invited, nonetheless, the one, whom the Holy Spirit gave a special invitation to sit in the V. I. P. lounge, with a perfect view, a cup of cappuccino, and kids screaming at me for attention. I was the uninvited guest in the body of Christ here on earth! Well, since they did not invite me but the Holy Spirit did, I felt very welcome, and decided to make myself at home as I went back to the television each time, to see if the baby-adults were still doing what they did best; Arguing and fighting! And the truth be told, they never disappointed, Jeezzz! Every time I went back to check on them, the trading of words, and throwing shades were getting more intense from both sides, with no referee to settle the case! It was really embarrassing to watch as I finally understood why the Holy Spirit was calling me into it, thus, I eventually did a simple but foolish prayer; The prayer of a foolish prophet, or a foolish Judge, “God, make him decide once and for all, where he wants to go; To the left to left, or to the right to the right!” I do believe I could have prayed it like Beyonce, the church girl, would have sung it! To my humble understanding at that time, I just felt that it shouldn’t be that difficult to make a simple decision, which is, either he continues preaching the word of God in a manner that threatens people to fear God Almighty, like he had always passionately done, and I was never threatened by it, or let him join the other group who preached the grace of God alone! Little did I know, that the assignments of God’s Prophets are not as simple as that! As a prophet of God, He doesn’t show you things to entertain you, it is a serious issue and He wants you to access the situation, the bone of contention, in order for you to make your own judgement based on the word of God within you, as well as the training which you have received from Him, and then finally bring your judgement or assessment back to Him; For Him to review and revert!
Child of God, I didn’t know that, I just felt that this particular hard-liner preacher should have his mind made up on what he wanted, and where he stands, and stop wasting our precious time, while forgetting that the word of God clearly states that,
“The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?”
Jeremiah 17:9, KJV.
Thus, if you apply intense pressure on a man who is secretly dealing with a whole lot, to make a speedy decision, it will be very easy for him to make decisions based on his current state of mind, or the very things he is being challenged with, and sometimes, this could be decisions contrary to the will of God, while some other times, the LORD God may use such intense pressure to push him out of a place, or situation he is not supposed to be in! Therefore, it can go either way, depending on who the man is, what he may be grappling with at the time of the intense pressure, as well as, how deeply rooted in his personal beliefs, or convictions he truly is!
Over the course of time, and not too long from when I began observing them according to the leading of the Holy Spirit, I was given another vision and in this particular one, I saw them all eating together, and shortly afterwards in the natural realm, either they muzzled him to join them, which he did, or situations in his personal life made him finally move over to fully preaching grace alone. Now, a while after he did that, his ministry skyrocketed to a higher level in the physical realm, but to my disappointment for him, approximately 2 years ago when the Holy Spirit began to speak to me about him again, I was made to see his current spiritual state, which saddened me deeply. In the spirit realm, I could see the LORD entering into his church from the main door, and making HIS way towards the pulpit, where this man of God stood. As the LORD walked along the isle, I could see that the pew was very dark; almost no light! While the Holy spirit was approaching him, I could feel HIM deeply weeping for this now turned grace-preacher, immensely shedding tears for him, while HIS face was fixed on this man. I saw HIM eventually climbing up the stair-case, in order to get to the pulpit, which was in comparison to the pew, not as dark, nonetheless, still very deem, but enough light for me to make out the face of the man, as well as the expression of his face and body. I want you to understand that for the LORD to be climbing up the stairs to get to where he stood is symbolic of elevated position here in the earth-realm, or what some would call promotion, upliftment, progress, breakthrough, or blessing.
I heard the LORD amidst tears, which HE was shedding for him, telling him that the Grace of God, like he has embraced, and had been teaching it, doesn’t work like that! The person I am talking about here is not an apostle, prophet, or bishop, but rather an American black PASTOR and a TEACHER, whom I truly love and respect, and through whose ministry, I had been truly fed with the unadulterated word of God, even though it sounded some worth harsh, yet, the Holy Spirit used His teaching and preaching to feed, and strengthen me many years ago, when I really needed it. He was the first global minister, whom the LORD GOD led me to learn from, and I sat before the television feeding on the word of God through him those days. He was literally the voice through whom the Holy Spirit used to talk to me early in the days, and over the course of time as I kept listening to him and maturing in the word, I learned to eat the meat and spit out the bones. I was convicted of my sins, and any lifestyle that was ungodly, just by listening to him. He had much positive influence on me, and I do believe, that because God used him to help me, and many others, that God has not forgotten him as our God is not a user like Satan, who would dump you after he is done with sucking you dry of the things he needs from you, but our Holy and faithful God, would always bless you, and remember your faithfulness to him as long as you belong to Him and are called according to His purpose. Hence, I am led to write this, and believe that he will get to read it, and I hope and pray for him that God Almighty would call him out of any path, which he has not been assigned by God to follow in Jesus’ most merciful name, amen!
I intentionally, refrain from talking about the countenance of this particular minister towards the LORD, the moment the LORD stood weeping before Him, and telling him to repent for the way he was preaching, and living out grace. I could literally feel the emotions of the LORD; it was like that of a loving father, one who loves his child above all things, but who is in deep anguish because of the unfavorable state of his once beloved child. For the LORD to be weeping for this particular preacher like that, tells me that he is a genuine child of God, a genuine preacher, but who had derailed, and needs to come back for the salvation of his soul, and the restoration of his ministry and mandate!
Child of God, why am I being blunt about this? Because the Holy Spirit was weeping for him, and according to the word of God to Prophet Ezekiel, with regards to how Prophets of God are to speak the word of God to those whom it is for, if I do not speak to let him know, then, I could be partially held responsible for whatever happens to his soul, peradventure, he is a child of God, like I am convinced he is, but who for whatever reason got derailed, which is not unusual as it could happen to any of us, has happened to most of us, therefore, we need God’s divine intervention, through whomever he chooses to do so, in order to get us back on the right track, thus, I speak! Henceforth, if he despises me for speaking what the Holy Spirit revealed to me, in order to save his soul, then so be it, but if he doesn’t, but rather takes this word of God back to HIM, to seek His face as it relates to the message there-in, regardless of the answer he receives and how he decides to act upon it, which wouldn’t matter much to me, then, Hallelujah, I am blessed with an extra brother in Christ!
The one, with whom he was contending is also a very likable pastor and teacher, who is from Asia, and whose preaching and teaching, I very much enjoyed till the LORD re-directed me to somewhere else, just like he had always done with me, as there were other things at that point in time, which He was interested in, for me to learn somewhere else. He moved me to begin to listen to a pastor, whom I never thought I would listen to; Pastor Charles Stanley, and someday, I may talk about my experience while allowing the Holy Spirit to teach me through his ministry- It was an unusual kind of experience for me. Thus, I pray for these ministers who preach grace alone with regards to the way that they do preach, teach and live it, to go back and ask God about HIS grace once more, and if God had assigned them to preach and teach it the way that they have been doing. If so, then, let them go ahead, but if not, let them repent from such path to the right one!
Another thing I do believe a minister should ask the Holy Spirit about, is if God has called them with the message they are running with, or with another message entirely. We, who are children of God, have one Holy Spirit. We are all unique in our gifts and calling, and everyone has a different song given to them by God Almighty, to sing for the good of the Bride of Christ, hence, singing another person’s song may mess up your talent – Stick to your song but when you come across a good song, which someone else is singing, then, learn the lyrics and enjoy their talents, while you stick to yours. Apostle Paul was an apostle of grace, and called to the gentiles, therefore, if another, whom God never gave the same assignment would embark on the same journey with him, such, would derail from their true calling and end up rebelling against God Almighty, while in complete submission here on earth to someone, whom they call their spiritual fathers, and who commissioned them like the old prophet of the bible did to the young prophet.
Think about it child of God; The young prophet would have thought in his heart, “everybody has been calling me a spiritual bastard, and now this old (experienced) prophet, who has been around for a long while, and has so many connections, and knows the game in ministry, has decided to adopt me as his spiritual son, what a favor – I must be the best thing poppin!” and decided to follow him, although the reason why he set off on his prophetic journey was because he got a clear instruction from God Almighty; not to talk, listen, or dine with anyone (old or young, rich or poor, black or white, etc.) Thus, the enemy used the old prophet to first derail, and then eventually kill him and his ministry – Child of God Almighty, may such not be our lot in Jesus’ most merciful name, amen!
I believe, that there is no grace without the law. In my own words, so that we do not err, or misinterpret what I intend to convey, what I mean by the law, is righteousness, accountability, or JUSTICE. And also in my own words, when I talk about Grace, I am referring to the Mercy of God’s LOVE.
JUSTICE AND MERCY = JESUS CHRIST! Thus, according to my firm belief, you can not have one without the other; No Justice, No Mercy! Consequently, preach Jesus Christ, preach justice. Preach Jesus Christ, preach grace.
PRAYER
- Holy Father, help us not to be ignorant of the devil’s devices, but rather, to prevail over them in whichever way, shape, and form he comes against us in the merciful name of our Savior Jesus Christ, amen.
- Faithful and most powerful God, help us to always have favor with You, through the still small voice of Your Holy Spirit as to always discern when we are about to drift off course, and help us to stay on course, regardless of how fierce the storm may rage in the most faithful name of Jesus Christ, amen.
- Compassionate and merciful God, in a case where we have already drifted off our spiritual course, help us to navigate our way back to the right path, by repenting and remaining in You Holy Father God, in the merciful name of our Redeemer Jesus Christ, amen.
- Most faithful and Holy Father God, help us to successfully finish our God given assignments, and journey here on earth with the Kingdom of Heaven distinction, and according to Your will for us; In the limelight or away from it, in the most faithful name of our Savior Jesus Christ, amen!
NOTE: Next week, and God willing, I might be writing about a healing minister, and that is if nothing else is brought to my attention to write about….or I might as well take a break from devotional next week.. time will tell.
Child of God, be happy and stay blessed
Jesus loves you!
Sister Susan!